Today, I have the privilege of getting to celebrate something for the first time in my 32 + years of life. Today, I get to celebrate the first anniversary of the day I married my HUSBAND.
I still have moments where I pause and have to remind myself that this is real; that I do, indeed, have a husband. For years, I never thought the day would come. I had given up hope, until I put my hope in God.
I will never forget the time that I decided to completely surrender my life to God. After years of trying to do things my way and enter into relationships with men who wanted me for the wrong reasons, I hit rock bottom. Yet, it was in that valley that God met me and slowly called me back up. I say SLOWLY because that is the pace God laid out for me, to counteract the years I tried to rush everything.
Two years, two months, and twenty-two days… that is how long it took me to climb out of that valley. To me, it felt like a lifetime. In the beginning, it seemed like every day was wasted time that I should have been spending with my future husband and that my chances of ever having more children were withering away.
But God knew what He was doing. He knew that His timing did not compare to my own. He knew that every day was not wasted, but rather was molding me into the woman He had already created me to be. He is the potter and I am His clay. Though He molded me before I could speak a word… though I continuously demolished His creation in me, He never ceased to reshape me. For that, I am eternally grateful.
To my HUSBAND:
Thank you for entering into this covenant with me one year ago today (December 15th). Thank you for allowing God to reshape you over the years, as well as allowing Him to lead you to me. Thank you for seeking Him daily. Thank you for pulling me out of my valleys, leading me closer to you and, more importantly, closer to Him.
The first year of marriage is not always easy. There are often a lot of rain and thunderstorms, but when the clouds part, and you allow God’s light to shine through, you can find the rainbows that He creates.